I have feelings of loneliness but I never feel alone. When I am alone, I escape from the loneliness that haunts me.
There was a point in my life when I felt so alone all I could do to ease the pain was cry… And I did cry…. I cried until I couldn’t cry anymore. I cried like I had never cried before, and could never cry again. I cried from the heart, from its deepest depths and hallows until the Angels in the Heavens could hear.
When I could no longer cry, I screamed. I screamed hoping that the anguish would escape my soul from the tips of my lips. Only problem was, I screamed so loud, that no one heard me.
Then God sent a sign of hope, a glimmer of truth. Since that day, my life has never been the same.
Asalaamualaikum sister
Thank you for this post and for being so candid about your feelings. I can completely relate to how you felt. The emptiness inside makes it impossible to breathe. I have family and a few friends but constantly feel lonely. I wonder if I am being ungrateful to Allah because of this perpetual saddness I feel. It’s wonderful that you were able to overcome that saddness and move on. May Allah reward us for our struggles. ameen
Comment by fellow muslimah — June 25, 2009 @ 12:55 am |