This morning I was on my way to class and I popped my headphones into my ears and turned on Lupe Fiasco’s latest album, “The Cool”. Whenever I walk to class, I find that listening to some reflective, conscious music helps me to avoid distractions that may otherwise catch my attention between parking my car at the mosque and my 10 minute walk to class.
This morning was different however…
I have been walking to class for many years now, and this being my last semester, I am more motivated to go to class than usual to ensure that inshAllah (God-willing) I do not have any potential failures that would prevent me from obtaining my degree. I have actually always preferred to walk, as given my busy schedule, it allows me a bit of exercise that I would otherwise probably not get.
Anyhow, on this particular morning as I walked to class, coming of a weekend of spiritual reflection and contemplation, I looked up at the sky and for the first time in a long time a big smile came across my face. I smiled… perhaps a sincere smile that has not graced my lips in longer than I can possibly recall…
I smiled…. I smiled because I was happy to be alive… I smiled thinking of where I had been and where I was going… I smiled because God is merciful… I smiled because I have love in my heart… I smiled because I know how much it hurts to frown…. I smiled because I have some of the best friends an individual could ask for…. I smiled thinking of how God has taught me so many lessons in my short lived life…. I smiled because I am in love… I smiled because I love love…. I smiled because love is better than hate…. I smiled because I know that God has a plan that superseeds any plan we, as humanity, could possibly come up with…. I smiled because I knew….
I smiled because I knew…. I smiled because I knew that God was looking down upon me, as He always has been, and as He always will be…
I smiled… I smiled because I know that never again in my life will I be alone as long as I have God in my life….
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